Between the stars

What happens when you close your eyes?Do all the tortures lead 

into an eternal sleep or at a luminous light?

When your body is completely sane but your soul's been crippled?

Thoughts of chaos,understanding my complex,mazy mind.

Should I try to mutilate my thoughts?Even if I tried,delight and serenity

wouldn't escort me never again.

I should care for myself you say,love people beside me.

Smile.A smile without sense.

They say,you can not love anyone until you love yourself.

But please,unriddle my destitutions,how can I love me?

It's me,myself,I can not and will never forgive.

It's my body these paranormal scars enshroud.

It's me who's afraid of the apalling reflection when I look in the mirror.

It's my chains that will never be broken.

So tell me again sweet girl,how can I love myself when I am doomed 

between the stars?